I sacrificed my sleep till 4 in the morning eventhough I knew that I had to wake up at 7 the next morning. I did that just to accompany you till you feel sleepy. I sacrificed my sleep just to wake up to go to school 'cause thinking that after school, I'd be meeting you. Eventhough I know I was an hour late for school, I didn't care. I still went cause I thought I'd be able to see you later on. But wat do I get in the end? Nothing. Not my sleep. Not the stuffs that I intended to buy. Not the things I wanted to do. Zero. Zilch.

Or am I really that selfish? Thinking of myself only. Like someone who claims that I am.

Selfish? Am I?

For all this while that I've sacrificed for you, have you seen it? No. Bastard. Am I? Have you reflected on yourself sir? Do you know that my girlfriends think you're a jerk. If you're going on about the girls you meet online and stuff and praising them. Do you know how it feels or atleast... felt? Have you ever thought what deep deep deep inside I'm feeling?

I don't think so. Yes, you'd prolly argue with what I've said. Saying that you did try to understand me. But is that effort enough to know what I feel? No. You don't know me well enough to say all that, ___i. And in case you don't know sir, I often hide what I feel. I'm good at it. Trust me.

Liy says that I care too much about people's feelings. Doesn't mind if I be the unhapy one at the end of the day. And how long has she known me? More than 9 years.

Until one day, I thought to myself. Is it worth to take in everything and put on a nothing's-wrong front? So that's when I started to get harsh with you. Cause I dont think you deserve all that treatment from me.

I've said my piece dude. If you wanna go on with your ego, go ahead.