I collected my Garskin today. It was actually sent yesterday but Mom didn't open the door so yah.
Collected it as Westmall's Singpost. Where else right? I live in Bukit Batok.
I was having migraines since school ended. No idea why. I can say it was a norm to have migraines back in secondary school. Hmm.
Anyway, my point is... After I collected my Garskin, I sat down at one of the seats at Level 4 and just observe, reminisce and wonder. I reminisced things that had happened for the past 16 plus years of my life. I felt heavy in the chest. Usually, that feeling would be felt more to the left side of my chest and it wouldn't feel as bad. But today, it was right in the middle of my chest, heavy than ever, a piercing feeling deeper than ever.
Alot of things were going through my mind. Families, friends, you name it. Actually, before reaching Westmall, I already felt a piercing feeling in my chest. Was when I was in the bus, few stops before I alighted. The area I used to live when my family was taking baby steps.
When I looked at the place, I felt real slighted. I was really trying to hold back my tears, my throat was hurting holding them back. I mustn't cry, I know. It was rather a mixture of emotions. I felt hurt, sad, glad, mad all at once. The only thing that was going on my mind was... Mom.
I've been feeling remorse at late. I try my very best to brush the feeling off. And no, it's not pertaining only stupid minor stuffs like love and whatnot. That's just rubbish. There's more to it.
I sat for 10 minutes if I'm not wrong. But I felt better somehow. Maybe I just needed some time to be alone and take time off from the rush and buzz of life. Probably. Come to think of it, I used to do this often back then. Spending time alone, pondering and whatnot.
Something hurts deep inside. I don't know why, I don't know what. Do I want to know? I don't know.
Collected it as Westmall's Singpost. Where else right? I live in Bukit Batok.
I was having migraines since school ended. No idea why. I can say it was a norm to have migraines back in secondary school. Hmm.
Anyway, my point is... After I collected my Garskin, I sat down at one of the seats at Level 4 and just observe, reminisce and wonder. I reminisced things that had happened for the past 16 plus years of my life. I felt heavy in the chest. Usually, that feeling would be felt more to the left side of my chest and it wouldn't feel as bad. But today, it was right in the middle of my chest, heavy than ever, a piercing feeling deeper than ever.
Alot of things were going through my mind. Families, friends, you name it. Actually, before reaching Westmall, I already felt a piercing feeling in my chest. Was when I was in the bus, few stops before I alighted. The area I used to live when my family was taking baby steps.
When I looked at the place, I felt real slighted. I was really trying to hold back my tears, my throat was hurting holding them back. I mustn't cry, I know. It was rather a mixture of emotions. I felt hurt, sad, glad, mad all at once. The only thing that was going on my mind was... Mom.
I've been feeling remorse at late. I try my very best to brush the feeling off. And no, it's not pertaining only stupid minor stuffs like love and whatnot. That's just rubbish. There's more to it.
I sat for 10 minutes if I'm not wrong. But I felt better somehow. Maybe I just needed some time to be alone and take time off from the rush and buzz of life. Probably. Come to think of it, I used to do this often back then. Spending time alone, pondering and whatnot.
Something hurts deep inside. I don't know why, I don't know what. Do I want to know? I don't know.