Sometimes, I forget that I have a life and that I am a teenager. School, family commitments. Sometimes, I just wanna say "FUCK OFF!" to these things. Like now.

I wanna be pretty, I wanna be happy, I wanna wear nice clothes, I wanna have nice hair, I wanna wear make up without looking like some whore and go out and flaunt the sexiest smile to whoever is cute/pretty/beautiful/gorgeous, I wanna be thin, I wanna have fun with all my girlfriends, I wanna take loads of pictures, I wanna go out all day, I want to just date around and don't give a fuck, I want to be carefree, I want to forget all the shits that I was/am going through, I don't want to care for education for once.

Angsty enough? Typing all these down reminds me that I am a teenager.

Tsk. My life is so plain and mundane. I want more excitement in it.

I like rules, usually. It make things safe. But too many rules make things boring. I like routines but too much of the same thing, makes one sick. I want change, I need change.

But reality check, I am who I am as I'm shaped into it. Like it or not, I have to face it. I just want to taste what it is like to be free and carefree. However, what I want and what I am, are not the same.

If you knew me well enough, I'm a sucker for love. When I fall, I fall deep. When I love, I love only one. I'm what they say, "your girl-next-door" but with a twist. I'm nice but if cursing and swearing vulgarities isn't, then I'm not that nice. :)