I'm having my much needed 2 weeks break. I really need it.
I think I've figured out something about my self. HAHA. Well... If I'm starting to absent myself from school often, it means that I need a break from it. This can be cross referred to last year's incident where I often absent myself from school as it was the last year of my secondary school life.
Okay, that was total crap. It didn't mean to make sense. So moving on.
I hope this two weeks, I'd be able to figure out myself and stabilize my emotions. I've to get things straight and right.
I really don't know what is going on inside my head and heart. It's a big mess, a big emotional mess I can say. I'm confused. Yes! That's it, I'm confused! *Enlightened*
Anyway, it's like this. I am very much certain that I've gotten over that person, very sure. I know I don't have any feelings for him. When I question myself whether when I'm feeling sad or feeling calm, I am very much certain that I do not have feelings for that person anymore. I even know that I don't even yearn for... him. (K, this part sounds disgusting)
So anyways. However, when I watch those(love) kind of films, I usually get this sharp pain in my chest. The tight feeling in my chest. And the feeling whereby you feel your throat is strained and dry. And your eyes hurt. Why? Because you're forcing yourself not to cry.
Especially today I was watching the Bollywood movie at Vasantham. In the show, it says that we only love once. So it made me ponder. What if that is really true? What if that's the only one time I'm going to love? And the others, not so love, in a way that I do love them but not as much?
Butttttt. I came across something in Twitter which mentioned something which somehow disagrees to it. So, I really hope the one in Twitter is true. I choose to make it true. So that the next person that I love, whoever you are, will be loved as much as how I loved the previous person. HAHAHHA. But, seriously.
This 2 weeks. What are my plans? I think basically, I need to spend more time with my family 'cause I've not been so due to school. But actually, I'm not a family-oriented kinda person. But I can't do much, can I? It's a responsibility. You just have to do it.
But I'll prolly have some me-time. I must ensure that I always have me-time during the hols. Erm. I've not been reading of late. I really need to. So prolly visit the library one of the days.
I'm taken on my birthday. By E25H. They're having a class outing on that day. I don't know if I can make it on that day. No promises. But hopefully I would so. I'm already missing my darlings. So fingers crossed. InsyaAllah, nothing gets in the way. Amin.
And I think it's overdue for a meet up with Liy. Miss her so much. This girl eh, please update your blog. I don't meet you often so please let me read about your life atleast I know how you're doing. Tsk. Hahahha.♥
I think this blog is long enough to make up for my short posts. I think I've mentioned this before but I'll mention it again anyway.
I've not been updating due to Twitter. I've been tweeting more than usual. But now that I've The Sims 3 in my lappy, I gues I won't be tweeting much either. Heh.
Much loves. :)
I think I've figured out something about my self. HAHA. Well... If I'm starting to absent myself from school often, it means that I need a break from it. This can be cross referred to last year's incident where I often absent myself from school as it was the last year of my secondary school life.
Okay, that was total crap. It didn't mean to make sense. So moving on.
I hope this two weeks, I'd be able to figure out myself and stabilize my emotions. I've to get things straight and right.
I really don't know what is going on inside my head and heart. It's a big mess, a big emotional mess I can say. I'm confused. Yes! That's it, I'm confused! *Enlightened*
Anyway, it's like this. I am very much certain that I've gotten over that person, very sure. I know I don't have any feelings for him. When I question myself whether when I'm feeling sad or feeling calm, I am very much certain that I do not have feelings for that person anymore. I even know that I don't even yearn for... him. (K, this part sounds disgusting)
So anyways. However, when I watch those(love) kind of films, I usually get this sharp pain in my chest. The tight feeling in my chest. And the feeling whereby you feel your throat is strained and dry. And your eyes hurt. Why? Because you're forcing yourself not to cry.
Especially today I was watching the Bollywood movie at Vasantham. In the show, it says that we only love once. So it made me ponder. What if that is really true? What if that's the only one time I'm going to love? And the others, not so love, in a way that I do love them but not as much?
Butttttt. I came across something in Twitter which mentioned something which somehow disagrees to it. So, I really hope the one in Twitter is true. I choose to make it true. So that the next person that I love, whoever you are, will be loved as much as how I loved the previous person. HAHAHHA. But, seriously.
This 2 weeks. What are my plans? I think basically, I need to spend more time with my family 'cause I've not been so due to school. But actually, I'm not a family-oriented kinda person. But I can't do much, can I? It's a responsibility. You just have to do it.
But I'll prolly have some me-time. I must ensure that I always have me-time during the hols. Erm. I've not been reading of late. I really need to. So prolly visit the library one of the days.
I'm taken on my birthday. By E25H. They're having a class outing on that day. I don't know if I can make it on that day. No promises. But hopefully I would so. I'm already missing my darlings. So fingers crossed. InsyaAllah, nothing gets in the way. Amin.
And I think it's overdue for a meet up with Liy. Miss her so much. This girl eh, please update your blog. I don't meet you often so please let me read about your life atleast I know how you're doing. Tsk. Hahahha.♥
I think this blog is long enough to make up for my short posts. I think I've mentioned this before but I'll mention it again anyway.
I've not been updating due to Twitter. I've been tweeting more than usual. But now that I've The Sims 3 in my lappy, I gues I won't be tweeting much either. Heh.
Much loves. :)