Just so you know, I've not performing up to my expectations in school. Ever since school reopened, I felt very lethargic and sometimes, lifeless. My thoughts are rather slow. I'm rather quiet in class discussion; like I don't think on the spot like how I used to.
I'm scared. And worried. I should have a constant performance in school but it seems it's going downhill. Oh nooooo.
I know myself; I noticed myself to be less participative in class. I used to be focused especially in the first two meetings. Especially for Cognitive and Comm Skills. Enterprise and Science, I was so-so. Maths, it's no surprise I'm not paying attention- Just look at who's the faci. (K, jahat.)
I think the facis noticed the change. I know the faci for Comm Skills and Cognitive faci realized, the Cognitive faci especially. Here's the prove.
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Part of her comments. I got a grade B for this lesson, problem 9. Which shows that I could've done better if I talked more in the first two meetings. Hmm.
I don't know why I'm like that. But I reckon it's because of my sleeping pattern now.
I've been sleeping really late. Sleeping in the dawn. The earliest I knock off is at 1.30am. But I can't help it. I can't seem to sleep earlier. Then this will lead me to having insufficient sleep. Hmm.
I really need to do something about this. Or else my grades would be at stake.
Other than this sleeping thing, I think there's another reason why I'm like this. Perhaps it's because of me losing confidence in class due to missing a few classes. I feel handicapped especially in Enterprise. They're talking things that I don't know/don't remember. I need to get back on track. I know I deserve this cause I absent myself from school. I bare the consequence fully.
But I just feel so... I don't know how to describe. I'm at one of my phase in life I feel really helpless and restless. I don't know what to do. I don't know what is it that I want. I don't know who I am. I am... unhappy.
I'm trying to fight all these for my grades. Dear Allah, help me through this phase like how you've always did these years. Please make things better for me. Please be my guidance and lead me to the right path. Amin.
It's 3 now. But I think it's okay since tomorrow would be a Sunday. But I'll definitely sleep right after this.
Much love.
I'm scared. And worried. I should have a constant performance in school but it seems it's going downhill. Oh nooooo.
I know myself; I noticed myself to be less participative in class. I used to be focused especially in the first two meetings. Especially for Cognitive and Comm Skills. Enterprise and Science, I was so-so. Maths, it's no surprise I'm not paying attention- Just look at who's the faci. (K, jahat.)
I think the facis noticed the change. I know the faci for Comm Skills and Cognitive faci realized, the Cognitive faci especially. Here's the prove.
.
Part of her comments. I got a grade B for this lesson, problem 9. Which shows that I could've done better if I talked more in the first two meetings. Hmm.
I don't know why I'm like that. But I reckon it's because of my sleeping pattern now.
I've been sleeping really late. Sleeping in the dawn. The earliest I knock off is at 1.30am. But I can't help it. I can't seem to sleep earlier. Then this will lead me to having insufficient sleep. Hmm.
I really need to do something about this. Or else my grades would be at stake.
Other than this sleeping thing, I think there's another reason why I'm like this. Perhaps it's because of me losing confidence in class due to missing a few classes. I feel handicapped especially in Enterprise. They're talking things that I don't know/don't remember. I need to get back on track. I know I deserve this cause I absent myself from school. I bare the consequence fully.
But I just feel so... I don't know how to describe. I'm at one of my phase in life I feel really helpless and restless. I don't know what to do. I don't know what is it that I want. I don't know who I am. I am... unhappy.
I'm trying to fight all these for my grades. Dear Allah, help me through this phase like how you've always did these years. Please make things better for me. Please be my guidance and lead me to the right path. Amin.
It's 3 now. But I think it's okay since tomorrow would be a Sunday. But I'll definitely sleep right after this.
Much love.