It's already July. 7 months passed so quickly.
I'm only left 6 or less weeks more with my class. I'm very sure I'll miss them. Today was one of the best days in school 'cause it was full house during our first break. Almost everyone was at the table outside the class eating. (Y)
Let's talk about more personal stuffs. I just feel like talking about this so yeah.
So let me see. It's been a year? Since I had my last "relationship". Yes, it's pretty much difficult to understand what's on my mind when I keep talking about it's been almost a year, before this. It's real complicated. You'd only understand me if you're close to me or have known me long enough to understand what has been going on. But July last year, mid-July, I was out of a relationship, officially.
I must admit that I've been yearning for someone to be there in my life, no doubt. What more a person like me, a sucker for love, can't help but to yearn to have someone special in my life.
But that aside. Somehow, sometimes, I'm really proud off myself. Of my perceptions on things and how I react to them. Especially recently.
All these while, when it came to relationships, I never learn. I kept giving in, following my emotions rather than to face reality and think rationally.
For the past one year, I think I've learned so much. All from the people around me. I've understood how my insecurities back then was a pest to the other party and especially how difficult a relationship may turn out if you rush into it and follow too much of your emotions. All those things have made me realized how naive I was back then. But I regret none of it. It's no use regretting I guess?
Yes, I must've said I regretted this and that. It was prolly said in a midst of anger. When I'm in a calm state, I look back and think, I realized those mistakes have made my perceptions like this today. But, there's one I really regret. Sue should know who right. And the rest of the dancers. Psycho. HAHAHAH.
But some things in me never change I guess. Like how I believe that there must be a boundary/limit between a guy and a girl. What a guy shouldn't do when he's attached and same goes for a girl. If you do some things to a friend, even if it's a close friend, and at the same time, you do those things to your partner, what's the use of it then? If the only difference that can be made between a normal friend and your partner is just by the three words, it doesn't really matter much to be in a relationship does it?
Above all, I still and will always not believe in cheating.
Anyway, I've been yearning for someone especially recently 'cause I see people around me being attached. HAHA, that's not the main reason though. It's just the thought of how nice things would be when you have someone to share your happiness with, you tears with, your daily rants and to know that you have someone there for you. It's nice isn't it? :)
But at the same time, I think of the possibilities of how things can turn real sour and draining. All those arguments and whatnot. I'd realize perhaps I'm not fully ready.
To the next you, I hope you'd be a person of somewhat the same wavelength as me. Someone average, like me. Someone who's serious yet flexible, like me. But at the same time has different likings from me and wouldn't mind showing me new things in life. :) So to the next you, when are you going to appear? Next year? Next next year? HAHAHHAHHA, wtf Nisa. I'm just joking okay people.
Anyway, let's hope July's gonna be another month that'll be full of learning experiences and may it be bittersweet. Why bittersweet? 'Cause if things are always sweet, when will you learn? You'd only learn when bad things happen to you.
Okay, much love. :)
I'm only left 6 or less weeks more with my class. I'm very sure I'll miss them. Today was one of the best days in school 'cause it was full house during our first break. Almost everyone was at the table outside the class eating. (Y)
Let's talk about more personal stuffs. I just feel like talking about this so yeah.
So let me see. It's been a year? Since I had my last "relationship". Yes, it's pretty much difficult to understand what's on my mind when I keep talking about it's been almost a year, before this. It's real complicated. You'd only understand me if you're close to me or have known me long enough to understand what has been going on. But July last year, mid-July, I was out of a relationship, officially.
I must admit that I've been yearning for someone to be there in my life, no doubt. What more a person like me, a sucker for love, can't help but to yearn to have someone special in my life.
But that aside. Somehow, sometimes, I'm really proud off myself. Of my perceptions on things and how I react to them. Especially recently.
All these while, when it came to relationships, I never learn. I kept giving in, following my emotions rather than to face reality and think rationally.
For the past one year, I think I've learned so much. All from the people around me. I've understood how my insecurities back then was a pest to the other party and especially how difficult a relationship may turn out if you rush into it and follow too much of your emotions. All those things have made me realized how naive I was back then. But I regret none of it. It's no use regretting I guess?
Yes, I must've said I regretted this and that. It was prolly said in a midst of anger. When I'm in a calm state, I look back and think, I realized those mistakes have made my perceptions like this today. But, there's one I really regret. Sue should know who right. And the rest of the dancers. Psycho. HAHAHAH.
But some things in me never change I guess. Like how I believe that there must be a boundary/limit between a guy and a girl. What a guy shouldn't do when he's attached and same goes for a girl. If you do some things to a friend, even if it's a close friend, and at the same time, you do those things to your partner, what's the use of it then? If the only difference that can be made between a normal friend and your partner is just by the three words, it doesn't really matter much to be in a relationship does it?
Above all, I still and will always not believe in cheating.
Anyway, I've been yearning for someone especially recently 'cause I see people around me being attached. HAHA, that's not the main reason though. It's just the thought of how nice things would be when you have someone to share your happiness with, you tears with, your daily rants and to know that you have someone there for you. It's nice isn't it? :)
But at the same time, I think of the possibilities of how things can turn real sour and draining. All those arguments and whatnot. I'd realize perhaps I'm not fully ready.
To the next you, I hope you'd be a person of somewhat the same wavelength as me. Someone average, like me. Someone who's serious yet flexible, like me. But at the same time has different likings from me and wouldn't mind showing me new things in life. :) So to the next you, when are you going to appear? Next year? Next next year? HAHAHHAHHA, wtf Nisa. I'm just joking okay people.
Anyway, let's hope July's gonna be another month that'll be full of learning experiences and may it be bittersweet. Why bittersweet? 'Cause if things are always sweet, when will you learn? You'd only learn when bad things happen to you.
Okay, much love. :)