I'm starting to believe that this year isn't a good year. When I weigh things out, I'm starting to think that last year was actually better than this year. Or maybe equally the same. Hmm.
When I give it a thought, I realise that they weren't much good things that happened to me. I mean like those that really make me feel on top of the world. Hmm.
Like last year, Syf was one of the happenings which made me feel life is worth the while, the hard work. Then there was also Sweet Sixteen with Sue, Nana, Soleha, Fit, Yati. And I celebrated my birthday with someone (once) special. Also, I met up Fiz in June; I still had him around like a brother to me. And I remember studying Maths at night at Jurong East's library with Atq, Sue, Syiqs. And also there were times that I hung out with Liy at usual places or even her house.
This year, things that made me really happy were... Being in the same school as Sue, meeting E25H, Mom recovering. Went to eat with Sue at Seoul Garden. Uhhh, what else?
Hmm. I'm actually very sad today. Extra sad as compared to some other days recently. I feel like telling Sue because she's a very good listener and she know how to 'pujuk' me in some way that I think she's unaware of. As in she knows what to say to make me feel better like that ah. But I think later awkward cause we drifted apart since I started spending time with my classmates. I miss her lahhh. Hmm. Hope to see her soon. I believe I owe her an apology for not going home with her for sooooo long. :/
I think I don't feel this year is a good year because there aren't much things that go my way. I feel that I don't have a life because I don't laugh alot like last year. I'm a people-oriented kinda person so being with friends especially make me feel happy. This year I feel like I've not much friends. It's like, in RP, I only know 25 people in my class and 4 or 5 people outside class... which I don't talk to. Hmm. I feel so.... friend-deprieved? Mehhhh.
Like in secondary school, you'll change to Humans class, then to Mother Tongue then when changing classes, your friend's along the corridoors from other class will approach you, will joke around with you. It's much more lively in secondary school. Now's so mundane.
*Enlightened* Perhaps that's partly the reason why I think I was much more a happier person back then.
I wrote too much already. Write soon.