Anyway, last Friday marked the last session. Pretty straightforward. Since it wasn't the usual person, this time it was a guy, perhaps that's why it wasn't long-winded? Maybe.

Perhaps it's just that I am comfortable with guys when it comes to this issue? Idk, or maybe it's simple biasness. But, really, doesn't matter. It's not like you get what I'm talking about, do you? Haha. The main point is, it's done. :)

I've this thing of over and underestimating myself. Always happens.

So when I was talking to this person, it made me realise that I am so much aware of the things that is going through my head and my life better than I think I do so. Hmm.

Which then all the more made me realise that I am not into this whole relationship thing. Not even dating, for now. Idk, there's this part of me that thirst of knowledge. I've been wanting to learn new things but it's just... hmm, life itself that stops me? Idk, lazy to ponder upon that.

And from whatever the conversation I had with this person, it made me realise so much things. It made me realise especially that all those things that I ponder upon, are half of the time, beneficial for me. I don't just have these empty thoughts you know. When I think, it's more of reflecting. It's more of weighing things, coming out with possible outcomes etcetera.

Anyway, life's been pretty good. And I am such a sucker for yogurt, especially frozen yogurt. Haha, no link.

I've thought about it. I've lost myself in a midst of a heart break. I thought I was losing it. But that's just a phase I think? Well, what I was gonna say is that, I've thought this over.

Since I've lost myself, I barely know who I am, I'm still in search of who I am and what I want in life, what I want to do, to be precise. If loving someone means giving that person a part of you, how am I suppose to do that if I've barely have the knowledge of myself? It's like giving money to someone when you barely have any for yourself, that kind of analogy.

It has also came to me that all these while, I didn't love myself. If I had, I wouldn't even want myself to suffer and go through all that motion. So again, it made me think. How do I love someone when I don't even love myself to begin with.

I think some teenagers have this perception that 18 is a suitable age for you to get a boyfriend/girlfriend. It's not wrong to get one at this age, really. But frankly, it's really okay to not have one. But it all comes down to oneself. If you already know what you want in life, if you know your self-worth, you're stable enough to let the tides of love hit you, then very well, dating/love is for you then.

But as for me, I feel there's so much that I've missed out during the period(s) I was in a relationship. And if I get myself into another relationship, the chances are it'd do me no good like how it has always been. As in the outcome, get me? (Not saying relationships are really bad, they're not okay. I appreciate the times I've had in relationship(s) but it's the aftermath of a relationship I'm talking about)

Anyways, it's a day late but here's wishing all lovely mothers out there a Happy Mothers' Day! :)

I've school in about 6 hours or so and I'm still awake. It's so warm tonight. Ugh. Good thing I've got no school on Tuesday as it's an e-learning module. Mehehe. :)

Kinda looking forward to this Friday. I like new things. :) Shall speak about it when the time is right. :):)

Okay, I'll write when I do so. Heh. :)