When I gathered all the courage and told those things that I've been wanting to, then did I feel better.

I've learned to not hate him. I've accepted that yes, in life, people are gonna hurt and disappoint you, especially those you wish that wouldn't. They will hurt you, no matter what.

And no doubt, he still has a part of me. Maybe it's because I'm already too comfortable with him. But it's something not important right now.

They say lovers can't be friends. If they are, they either never really loved or they are still. Maybe for me, it's the latter. But love's too strong of a word. Or am I in denial? But then again, am I just loving carefully, am I just being realistic and rational? Hmm.

I've heard somewhere that in order for you to be happy, you must set all your negative feelings free. Maybe this is letting the negative feelings free?

I don't wish to think further because who knows what my brain may come up with and who knows what I would feel with the things I might think of.

Anyway, I came across this thing, "when you're negative, all the energy that you tend to attract would be negative"

And then, I suddenly got enlightened. "No wonderrrr"

Maybe I was already living a negative life, all the more it had me turned into that kind of person when I was in a relationship. Which is supported by the saying, "if you're unhappy single, you'd be more unhappy in a relationship." Makes. Total. Sense. To. Me.

I don't know what the future may bring, no one knows. But I'm still hoping that you're the one for me.

But if God has better plans for me, then, I'll accept. Afterall, I should be thankful because I had so many time with him over and over again. And maybe if one day I were to look back, this may just be another small phase of my life.

"We're teenagers, we don't know anything." :)

By the way, I've a few updating to do about one or two happenings in life but I keep postponing it due to pure laziness. We'll see how.