What was I thinking? Why do I even come across those things in my head? It's just fucking stupid of me. I've said it. "Teenagers, we don't know anything."
If he's been a jerk towards you, most likely, he'll be hurting you until... forever. You think of these things that deep down, he'a nice guy. But no, it's just you. You're the fucking stupid one who really needs to slapped because by him hurting you emotionally, it won't make you realise all these.
Fuck my thoughts. Fuck it all. Stupid girl to think of such things. Really Nisa? You think that way? You're just fucking dumb.
You enjoy making yourself upset because of him right? Will you ever learn? Haven't you had enough and tired of hurting?